This is hard

(That's what she said!!! Hehe, gotta love the American "Office")

To update:

I left my job on February 29th.
I'm down 8lbs in total.
I should be moving next month with the boy to a lovely flat in Cheltenham (freeeedom!!!!).
I'm still not out of my little 'down' period.

Taking the job in the first place was a mistake. I knew the salary was too low for what we need to live our life on, but in times like these I felt that any job was better than none, and figured it would be easy to find another job whilst at this one. I was wrong. It's not easy to speak to prospective employers in a half hour time slot between 12-12:30. They're never able to speak when you're back from work, and even if you do get to an interview stage, how do you get to the interview without your current employer smelling a rat? In the end I spoke to my lovely sister, giver of all amazing advice, who told me that she was behind me 100% and that there was much more I could be doing with my life.

Twelve days later and here I am. I've had two interviews and have two more lined up this week. I've had lots of positive feedback, lots of interest in my CV and feel I'm in a much better position to judge what's the best move for me. Sam is being hugely supportive (as always) and is quite insistent that I be happy with my job choice or else we'll only end up in the same position in another seven weeks! I realise how fortunate I am that I'm in a position where I can be 'picky' about what I take, and it's made me realise that perhaps the right decision was made in coming home from our travels sooner as we have some savings to fall back on at times like these.

As for my 'down' days, well today is one of them. It's a combination of feeling stifled still being at home with the parents (even though we're hopefully moving next month to a beautiful flat only a 5 minute walk away from my sister and the centre of Cheltenham and Pittville Park and the cinema and good shops etc - ooooh excitement!!!) and being a bit bored to be honest! I have a few appointments over the next 3 days though so the boredom should hopefully cease!

My weight loss is still slow. I want to be ok with that! My mum,sister and I are walking the NYC marathon in November for Breast Cancer and so I've been out on a few walks with my mum to begin my training for that. My pace is quite good, we did about 5 miles yesterday in an hour and a half. The previous Saturday we walked for 2 hours 20 and covered 8ish miles. I know that I'll be walking 26 miles and that I won't be able to keep that pace up for that long but a girls got to start somewhere!!!

Ideally I'd like to be a size 14 again. Before we go to New York would be awesome. Here's a pic of last time I went in 2006 where I was around a size 14 (and wanting to lose weight of course!)

Oh to be that size again! And to be happy about it! There's the difference. Reaching a size I'm happy with and maintaining it. Not being on a permanent cycle of needing to lose weight. I think I was in the 12 stone range here. I look happy here.

Was definitely happy here

Hehe. What a knob!

I don't think losing 3 stone by November is an unachievable target do you?

But first things first eh?

Permanent employment!

xxx