I'm not normally a negative person. My family used to joke that I was so laid back I was horizontal, and that it took a lot to wind me up and get me into a state.
Not so much the case anymore. Maybe it's an age thing?!
Or maybe it's just due to such a big change in my life from the last few years, and it's not a change I'd really planned for. Most of my life has had direction and a purpose - I always knew where I was going next. At school, I knew to work hard, get good grades then go to Uni. At Uni my goal was my year abroad in the States, followed by getting a degree to be proud of.
After Uni, get a job. Done. After getting job, have a few years of having fun with the money.
Then the goal became travelling and so I saved and planned.
Now we're back. And I've felt like I don't know where I'm heading. I've spent the last month or so just feeling so lost and it's not really like me.
And I haven't been dealing with it very well!
More tears and ups and downs have been the past 2 weeks. Getting to grips with my new job, taking in some exercise, spending time with the boy and friends, and trying not to fall out too badly with my parents etc etc!
There have been some highlights though...
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| Visiting Clevedon last Saturday |
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| Beautiful winter sunsets |
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| Stunning Cotswold village - Bourton-on-the-water |
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| Windy day! I have to learn to be a bit more patient with the speed at which things are moving. Eventually Sam & I will move out from the parents and be back in a place of our own again. Quite rightly Sam wants a few months worth of wages behind us before we move anywhere. I have also come to the conclusion that I'm ok with waiting for the right (note right, not perfect!) job to come along. I'm in touch with a recruitment consultant, but I'm not in desperate need of finding something right now, given that I already have something so it means I can be a bit more choosy with what I go for. Things will get better, of that I'm pretty positive ;) xxx |
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